Wednesday, May 17, 2006

i think i've fallen head over heels in love with every single piece of glass and metal that makes the national library its beautiful self. i wouldn't mind getting locked in there for a couple of nights. as well as if i were to take my final step into nothingness, it would be there too. worthiness of soiling its grounds with my splattered remains aside, of course. when we were darting around the 11th floor doing our seperate parts for the project, all i could think of was how incredible it would be to be there on a rainy day, right beside the massive glass windows, tiny and insignificant. and us being the napolean and pedro-ish idiots, we had take the lift facing the rest of town to the 14th floor and back to the 1st again, just to experience the incredible sensation of our hearts sinking and singing with joy at the same time. i think only the first pangs of harbouring a massive crush could be on par with that feeling. i want to get into that school so badly. the realistic one, not the ideal one. up to yesterday, i was thinking and saying that i only want to continue my studies because i want to delay entering the rat race but the more i think of doing that and maybe even going to buffalo to finish it up, the more i desire it. i'm endlessly thankful that the school fees are still affordable if i were to complete it locally, and because trying to go to buffalo would be a little of a stretch, i'm not putting too much hope on it. well if it's any consolation to myself, here's to hoping buffalo is some podunk town in the middle of bumfuck, USA where cousins are husbands and sisters and daughters are cumrags. but of course, it isn't. it's part of the big apple sooo i guess that pretty much eliminates it's podunk factor. there, i've finally spoken about it. one down; 999, 9999 issues to go!

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