the textual siege.

so the very last module's results are out, earlier than i expected.

this means that i can no longer pretend that applications are looming and potential rejections are impending.

i'll have to dig up that application form, all filled in, under that stack of prospectuses [prospectii? like cacti?], yknow, like the proverbial dust under the rug.

this is even worse than broaching the topic of going away with my family, because i really really dont take rejection well. i fully blame being an only child and a scorpio [yes, always blame the star sign] for being severely recessive in the rejection gene department. see also : super inflated ego.

and once my application[s] are on their way across asia pacific, and assuming a school stupidly wants me, there's the decision of going for the feb or july 07 intake.

i have the july option because someone wants me to stay longer.

i'm still not sure whether i want to stay on this claustrophobic island for an additional 5 months because apart from being egoistic, self-indulgent, judgemental and spoilt rotten, i am also very selfish, but of course that's already a given isn't it. it's like... having cheese fondue without the cheese. ok well, bad analogy but the best thing that happened today was having cheese fondue for lunch and dinner so shut it. i'm afraid i'll be miserable for that 5 months i could've already spent assimilating myself with the new environment and end up taking it out on the people around me.

by P at 11/14/2006 11:38:00 PM |