Friday, October 21, 2005

it's about 7 hours to the last paper and i've given up research on buddhism, jehovah's witnesses and mormons; in the hope of finding something easy enough to read up on and regurgitate for the essay later. no go. this is when being an atheist is no fun when you have nothing to expound on when you have to. at what price, anonymity? i'm increasingly finding myself wishing no one knows of this blog. i've also been kicking myself for a lot of things lately. escapism isn't coming as easily as it used to. sex, food, movies, the net, books are all exhausted options. now if only i was born with a platinum spoon shoved up my arse, then everyday, every hour, every second would be an escape. why do you think people pay for snooty service, air conditioning and at times, mediocre food when they have the means to? it's because we don't want to have to sit next to the table of six, with snotty kids and frazzled parents who looked like they came out in their pyjamas. it's also because we don't have to reject the dirty geriatrics who are spending their golden years touting 3 packets for $1 tissue amidst the filth and grime of the hawker centres. if money could buy cashmere tampons and pillows of top grade cocaine and love, i suppose it could buy me out of this early morning mini funk? as astutely observed by one person, i don't wear my heart on the sleeve much. excellent on my part, especially since i feel it's imperative right now to tuck and fold myself into a vuitton steamer trunk and be on the Oblivion Express. i don't usually do this; but just right before i slip between the cool covers for a couple of hours of respite, this is for the one whom i'll be lying next to. song courtesy of the newest blogger on the block. Ordinary People by John Legend. Girl im in love with you This ain't the honeymoon Past the infatuation phase Right in the thick of love At times we get sick of love It seems like we argue everyday I know i misbehaved And you made your mistakes And we both still got room left to grow And though love sometimes hurts I still put you first And we'll make this thing work But I think we should take it slow We're just ordinary people We don't know which way to go Cuz we're ordinary people Maybe we should take it slow This time we'll take it slow This time we'll take it slow This ain't a movie no No fairy tale conclusion ya'll It gets more confusing everyday Sometimes it's heaven sent Then we head back to hell again We kiss then we make up on the way I hang up you call We rise and we fall And we feel like just walking away As our love advances We take second chances Though it's not a fantasy I Still want you to stay We're just ordinary people We don't know which way to go Cuz we're ordinary people Maybe we should take it slow This time we'll take it slow This time we'll take it slow Take it slow Maybe we'll live and learn Maybe we'll crash and burn Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave, maybe you'll return Maybe another fight Maybe we won't survive But maybe we'll grow We never know baby you and I We're just ordinary people We don't know which way to go Cuz we're ordinary people Maybe we should take it slow We're just ordinary people We don't know which way to go Cuz we're ordinary people Maybe we should take it slow This time we'll take it slow This time we'll take it slow

the textual siege.

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